Long Time, No See

sorry its been so long! ive been suuuper busy with work and school. and just busy all around!

ill write more later because i have a huge to-do list right now, but ill fit this in somehow :) i am pretty much a super human!

It's All Right

so. I've always had this guy on the side. like a just-in-case guy. as in just in case i have nobody else, hes always there. and I'm not really talking emotionally, more physically. but anyways. hes always really liked me.

lately, with all the stupid guy drama *NOTE - the guy i talk about in my "I Kissed A Boy And I Liked It" post, Logan, basically played me. not cool. when i found out i was livid. that was about two nights ago. and this HUGE party that was supposed to take place but didn't.* but anyways, with all this guy drama I've been talking to him and hanging out with him more and more.

hes not a bad guy, just some of the things he does annoys me. like hes a really tongue-y kisser and he sweats easily (its better than Logan who bit my fricken lip off, guys- that hurts! i like the biting but keep it to a minimum por favor.) but theres also some good things about him. he will basically buy me anything i want, hes rich (!!!), and he lets me do my own thing. like i know the definition of what I'm doing is playing him but hes okay with it.

but i think I'm kind of starting to have a thing for him, cuz before i talked to him just enough so he would stick around and we didn't really hang out alot either. but i don't know if its because I'm desperate (actually, that's not it, because I'm never desperate cuz theres always someone out there!) or if I'm actually starting to like him. oh well, if everything was easy it would be called your mom.

I'm sorry. that was offensive. i take it back.

so to make things easier we will call him Connecticut. hes 19 (Legal!! bonus.) and in college with a high paying job. the only set back is that he gets in trouble for smokin that sweet, great green. and he cant drive until September. but once he starts again I'm sure he will have a nice car :)

i know, i know. last time i dated a rich guy things turned out badly. but i don't think they will happen this time cuz he is so obsessed with me that he will literally do anything for me.

I Love Being Me :)

The Little Things

soooo. today was a weird day, full of weird happenings. so I'm going to make a list of the things that amuse me and make me feel all warm and fuzzy :)

• getting messages on facebook :)
• boys calling me beautiful.
• my favorite song coming on the iPod
• singing like a fool with my friends :)
• when a table leaves me a big tip :D
• when my brother does whatever i ask him to do
• when my parents give me money.
• when a slide show has a kick ass transition :P
• eating <3

Music Is My Life

So cute :)

List ten musical artists BEFORE reading the following questions. Don't be lame and ruin it for yourself.
1. Lil Wayne
2. Down With Webster
3. Eminem
4. Katy Perry
5. 3Oh!3
6. My Darkest Days
7. BrokenCyde
8.  Chris Brown
9. Def Leoppard
10. Far East Movement

1. What was the first song you ever heard by number six?

(My Darkest Days) Porn Star Dancing :P

2. What is your favorite song by number eight?

(Chris Brown) Look At Me Now

 

3. What kind of impact has number one had on your life?

(Lil Wayne) huge impact. he sings/raps my life and hes a great person to look up to (except the drugs and jail time :/)

4. What is your favorite lyric by number five?

(3Oh!3) "Don't trust a ho"

 

5. How many times have you seen number four in concert?

(Katy Perry) never! but i would loveee to!

 

6. What is your favorite song by number seven?

(BrokenCyde) pretty sure its Freaxx. or Sorry. one of those two.

7. Is there a song by number three that makes you sad?

(Eminem) yes. lots of them :(. but probably When I'm Gone is connected to the bad times of my life..

 

8. What is your favorite song by number nine?

(Def Leopardd) Pour Some Sugar On Me. for sure :D

9. How did you first discover number two?

(Down With Webster) through the Canadian music video awards!

10. How did you first discover number three?

(Eminem) pretty sure hes basically been around forever. but probably through his silly songs.

 

11. What is your favorite song by number four?

(Katy Perry) hmm. all of them! but E.T. is my jam. for sure. 

12. Is there a song by number eight that makes you sad?

(Chris Brown) yes. there is. i forgot what its called though!! 

13. How many times have you seen number six live

(My Darkest Days) never! ugh. I'm sheltered! 

14. What is your favorite song by number one?

(Lil Wayne) oh jeeze. where to start. probably I'm So Over You. or What's Wrong With Them

 

15. How did you become a fan of number ten?(Far East Movement) just from hearing their songs on the radio

Drama

People who engage in "drama" will usually attempt to drag other people into their dramatic state, as a way of gaining attention or making their own lives more exciting.

Common warning signs/ risk factors of drama or a dramatic person are:

1. Having one supposedly serious problem after another.

2. Constantly telling other people about one's problems.

3. Extreme emotionality or frequently shifting, intense emotions.

4. Claiming to have experienced negative events that are highly implausible.

5. A boring job or mundane life.

6. Making claims without sufficient evidence or a lack of detail about supposedly serious events.

7. A pattern of irrational behavior and reactions to everyday problems.

(thank you, www.urbandictionary.com for understanding the life of young adults)

So lately, there has been a lot of drama in my life. and school hasnt even started yet. its depressing because im sure ill get enough of it during school. i dont need it on my vacation..

well me and Joe (the 21 year old) got into a huge fight last night. im talking about all out screaming and name calling and accusing and all that shit. all this took place in my car. with his/my friend in the back half the time. I'm sorrry anthony :/.

it was about me talking to other guys. of course. cuz i fuck every single guy i talk to. i had to clear all my guy friends with him. i didnt talk to any of my ex's or past things. i didnt even accept friend requests from guys. i sacrificed so much for him. some of my friends dont even talk to me anymore because of him. just fuck that. because ive learned that guys arent even worth your time. theyre only good for a while and after that theyre usless and a source of drama.

but i have to get off before i break this keyboard.

I'm so pissed.

I Kissed A Boy And I Liked It

soo. last night i had a visitor :) hes just great. like hes basically my dream guy. Ive been crushing on him for like ever! but the problem is that I'm always with somebody.

like right now. technically i have a boyfriend thing (the 21 year old) but at the same time I'm single. it doesn't make sense to me either. but i want to distance myself from this guy but hes kind of protective and to be honest i don't really trust him completely at all. and when i don't trust them i mess around :/. I'm not a very good girlfriend....

but this guy. hes a wrestler, fighter, hard worker, hes solid :), likes to get close, likes to joke around, not a prude, a farm boy but not a hick, and hes just amazing :). and he just happened to kiss me last night! and hes a good kisser. extra plus!

i always said that i wouldn't have a boyfriend senior year... but that's hard for me because i always have a boyfriend. i think the longest I've been totally single was like 2 weeks. and its not like i haven't tried or anything. and don't think I'm like bragging or anything, I'm just saying.

but since this is the guy I've wanted forever..

I just might make an exception :)

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'nuff said.

thanks guys!